Restless leg syndrome

Do you ever lay in bed and feel like your legs are still moving? You toss and turn, move them around but they still have that feeling? Well i have that feeling righ now. At midnight. Ugh!

I think that this is my bodies way of telling me I need to go to the gym. Thank you body. For reminding me right now.

It is on my Wednesday To Do list.

I just have to say that I heard something today that reminded me how strong we are. Physically and emotionally. We are not alone no matter how much we like to think we are. And that things can always be worse.

My mom reminded me today that I am a fighter. And I have always overcome people trying to bring me down. I have dealt with so much and I'm dealing with my same situation with heart and intensity.

I have God in my corner. The enemy is fighting hard but i have already defeated him. Good time to be reminded.

And I had a very close friend of mine kick me in the butt a little. Ok she kicked me HARD. And I needed it. Thanks Gav for always being honest with me, for listening and for accepting me. Always. Love you!

At this point I bet you are wondering about the randomness. That's how my brain works. Makes you crazy? Me too! One day I will have a switch to turn my brain off when needed. Until then I blog.


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Call it what you want

Envy. Jealousy. Want. Desire. I have been hit by the green eyed monster and I want it to go away. I HATE feeling jealous. I hate the way it takes over. I hate forgetting how great MY life is.

It seems like the more uncertain my life is the more certain others become in theirs. I know that my move is a step forward but some days it feels like twenty steps back. I no longer have my own place, my relationship is uncertain and i am trying to make my dreams cone true. I know that I'm living Gods plan so why is that I have such a hard time cooperating with him?

Many of you know this but I thought that I would be married with a kid at 25. The lord clearly had other plans. I long for a family. I want that other part to complete me.

This past week I helped a life long friend celebrate and prepare for her marriage. Another close friend got an engaged. Two friends are pregnant. And I have two weddings to attend in May. I am TRULY happy for these special people in my life. They are incredible women and I love them with all my heart. I want the best for them and I think that they all found it.

But I cannot help but think, "When will it be my turn?"

I am trusting God and his plan.
My head knows it but my heart hasn't quite caught up yet.

One day.....

JEREMIAH 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future

work out wagon

I cannot tell you why, but I have fallen off again. It is like I am addicted to NOT working out. I wish that I could be the opposite. I want to love working out. I really, really do. I am hoping to have more time now that I have moved. But now I have to establish myself again. An unfamiliar gym and NO trainer doesn't make it more welcoming. I am working on pulling it together.

Anyone have any trainer suggestions? I need motivation!

A new chapter has begun

I did it.

I moved.

It feels so weird.

Not quite sure how I feel.

Still trying to get acclimated.

Driving a new route was bizarre.

Driving through the town I grew up in makes me anxious.

I keep telling myself that God is in control.

I am following his plan and making him happy.

I am blessed beyond belief by my incredible parents.

My friends have been amazing: texts and check ins galore.

So here I sit. Wondering what is next!

And keeping the faith.

*** Side note, my mom unpacked and organized all of my stuff while I was at work.***

I CANNOT thank her enough!

And my Dad did so much heavy moving.

How did I get so lucky???