Eye candy: Ryan Gosling

the Notebook is one of my all time favorite movies.

it Never gets old.

I fell in love with Ryan's character, Noah, before I even realized HOW good looking he is.

Noah never gave up, did anything to make Ally happy while not losing himself. He kept her in line by being straight up honest but in a loving way.

And the love scenes were sexy and loving.

Ryan is a damn good dresser.

I LOVE his style and I think it makes him even better looking.

He wears pieces that many men would not feel comfortable in. He looks great in every day wear along with dressing up.

These pictures are just beautiful.

I love the striped cardigan, white v neck and motorcycle boots. His Ray Ban Wayfarers complete the "Hollywood cool" look.

All staples that guys should have in their closet.

In a Burberry tux.

The little scruff on his face makes me swoon.

{le sigh}

The open collar makes him look somewhat casual.

It leaves something to the imagination.

Not many men can pull off this look.

Very European.

You can tell he has an amazing body in his close fitting clothes.

This squinty smirk is one of my favorite facial expressions he makes.

He just looks hot.

And I LOVE Michelle WIlliams dress and new hair color and cut.

She looks gorgeous as well!

On my way

I am on my way to Maui! I cannot tell you how excited I am. I will be taking lots of pictures and updating my weekend via twitter. Check my Twitter if you can't wait for the post.

ONE week until my birthday! Countdown has begun!


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Life Ain't Always Beautiful

I was asked recently why I blog.

And I get asked that a lot.

I think that what the person was getting at is...

Why do you blog about your personal life when really it should be kept private and everyone doesn't need to know your business.

I was also asked if I blogged for attention.

{Maybe...but not in the way that it was asked}

I blog for many reasons:

1. I have always been a writer and writing is freeing to me.
2. I like the comraderie and companionship knowing that other people feel the same way I do at times.
3. I use this as a journal that I have looked back on over the last couple of years and have been happy to have the documentation; good and bad.
4. I like the attention but not in a self seeking way.
5. I am proud of my thoughts and feelings and opinions. They make me who I am. And I am entitiled to have them even when no one agrees.
6. I can see my growth as an individual.
7. I am inspired by others and hope to do the same.

I understand that many people don't like to be blogged about or apart of this world where anyone can see anything at anytime.

 It can be scary.

 I get it.

I blog for me.

And if I can help someone with my writing and experiences than I have contributed to a better world.

With that said...

It is not a secret that my life is drastically different than it was two months ago. And it is not a secret that I am not my usual self. In fact I think that the only thing that I have tried to keep a secret is that I am trying to pretend that everything is ok by being tough and strong. And that secret is not that very well kept.

I am sad, I am hurting, I am growing, I am emotional, I am trying.

And I am Human.

My life is not perfect.

It is not always exciting.

My job and traveling takes it toll

At times I think it has ruined many things/relationships in my life.

But this is a season in my life that I will learn and grow from.

I will become a better, stronger and more loving person.

I am going to hurt and I am going to cry.

And I don't need to hear all the usual things that you say to someone that is going through this.

I just need a shoulder to cry on.

A hug to tell me it's ok.

And an ear that won't JUDGE when listening to my roller coaster of feelings and emotions

Since I can't have someone with me 24/7...

Music has really been my refuge and my sanity.

Along with praying.

This Gary Allan song says so much.

It has touched me in the past and it touched me today.

Gary Allan

Life Ain't Always Beautiful

Life ain't always beautiful

Sometimes it's just plain hard

Life can knock you down, it can break your heart

Life ain't always beautiful

You think you're on your way

And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day

But the struggle makes you stronger

And the changes make you wise

And happiness has it's own way of takin' it sweet time

[chorus]

No,life aint always beautiful

Tears will fall sometimes

Life aint always beautiful

But it's a beautiful ride

Life aint always beautiful

Some days I miss your smile

I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles

And I wish for just one minute

I could see your pretty face

Guess I can dream, but life dont work that way

But the struggles makes me stronger

And the changes make me wise

And happiness has it's own way of takin' its sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful

But I know I'll be fine

Hey, life aint always beautiful

But its a beautiful ride

What a beautiful ride